numb is my heart as it falls to my feet
the pieces finding their ways into the cracks of the floor boards
attempting to hide themselves from the truth of my bloody hell
my brain skips beats filling the gaps in the sentences of my heartbeat.
a shrug of the shoulders and everything crumbles to shit
inhibitions fall at my feet like rogue waves of emotion
attempting to wring out insecurity from my being.
blood flows slowing, riding the wave of the breeze
gently billowing through your open window
emphasizing the space between us
whisking it’s calm force through you slowly with each shuddering inhale,
exhaling reconfirmed shore bound shit into my head
we sit, face to face, toe to toe, silently recalling the dream we once knew as reality.
sobs alternate from one to the other
like hand and foot on ladder climbing far into uncomfortable territory
scratching at a masked calling, missed calls from my heart to my head
leave palpitations of memories, carrying me to numbness surrounded by black sea.
black flows like thick paint down your rounded cheeks,
injected with the color of fallen paeonia petals on your kitchen table
finishing sentences with full names
as if we are patients checking in to a gilded asylum
licking our lips to force the medication down
numbing numbness was never supposed to be prescribed.